Ben and I had some sad news last week and I decided that it would be ok to post it now. I use this blog as one of my journals and last Thursday was a sad day but it was one that we will remember. We lost our baby last Thursday, we had just told family and a few friends that we were expecting our fourth. We were excited. Benji was blessing it in our prayers. I was exhausted. We were gearing up for the craziness of a 16 month old and a new baby all at once. Just throwing around some baby names. Packer wants a brother. Benji wants a Sister. And then in a flash it was all over. I miscarried. I cried all night. Ben comforted me all night and day. The Dr. confirmed our fears and now it is done. It’s a weird thing to lose a baby before you ever have it or see it. I know that I can’t see the whole picture so I trust that Heavenly Father does and he has our best interest in mind as we learn and grow in this life. I don’t know the technicalities of the body and the spirit and if that miscarried baby will be a part of our life or not. I am sad to think of what might have been and how that little one would have been a part of our family but I feel comfort and peace after this trial.